I hate you all, yeah I know it's bad to hate but whatever. I.HATE.YOU.ALL. There, I said it again. Here's a big F YOU to all those who doubted in me! I honestly dnt care who I offend no more because apparently my feelings weren't be thought of whenever people were putting doubt into my baby's father's head. No one gave a whoot about how their little schemes would effect me.
I am so happy to finally see who is real and who isn't. To my friends at Rouse's, thanks so much because without you, (Jennifer, Ms.Donna, Sharotta, Kassie, etc etc etc) I wouldn't have been able to make it through those long lonely days. && to all you that turned ya back on me, SUCKK IT! Because when it comes down to it, you, ehm, girls are nothing but MESSY N GHETTO.
Seriously I am SICK OF SOUTH LOUISIANA. CAN'T PEOPLE GET MORE CLASS OR SOMETHING? ARE WE FORCED TO LIVE LIKE WE WERE RAISED LIKE BOYZ IN DA HOOD? JESUSSS!
i want you. only you.
but then in the back of my mind, there's you
and i can't stop feeling a connection to you once again
i wish this would stop
but it will never stop ....
I love you.
i really love writing, rather it be an essay, journal, or story, i just love it. i'm not the best at spelling and grammar however. but anyway, think about it. one piece of writing can express a person in ways you would have never thought about. with writing, you're allowed to put every single thought you've ever had into detail. it's almost like the person reading the sentence or paragraph you wrote can actually picture themselves in your shoes and know exactly how you were feeling in that moment of time. it allows you to express yourself and i can honestly say when i write, i feel so at peace and calm.
my life is getting so much better lately. i know i screwed up a lot and those screw ups can never be taken back no matter how much i wish i could, but all i can do know is prove to everyone that i can do better and wont disappoint anymore peole. especially myself. i really don't want to go back to that, nor do i want to be around anyone who does. i dont want to do drugs anymore, i dont want to drink anymore, i dont want to get invovled with guys that i know aren't good for me anymore. && i know if i put my mind to it i can actually change && not get in anymore trouble.
why did i fall for you?
why did i screw up my perfect life?
why did i ruin things with my family?
why did i stop being best friends with yall?
why am i like this?
can i fix it?
i think i can.
wait no, i know i can.
i ask myself this same question every single second of my life.
got a boyfriend
BUT HEARIN' LOTS OF STUFF...
happy now though
saw adam, while standing outside and waiting for Goon 1 and Goon 2, aka chantelle + kelsey
they showed up around 1:00ish, then we chilled
haaaaa can you say most awkward time of my life
got to experience my mother questioning and chewing mel out
anyway chilled w/ those 3 until bout 3:30
they left,then went back to chillin w/ the girls
lmao got scared by a "grasshopper" which turned out to be paper : )
very very interesting night, should i say ( ;
dont feel like talkin much today
nothin amazin happened
i climb out of bed and begin straightening my hair, then i put it up in a messy bun,
then i fixed my make up all nice and got dressed
and boy was i upset
so i text chantelle,because obviously she can't ride home w/ me now
and tell her,
then i call a friend of mine and stayed on the phone for like an hour
but for the most part it's all good
chantelle's coming over later,
tanning if the sun's out, hopefully